I love the ease of creating a new ebook and putting it on the web. It can take very little mazoola to produce it. If I want to make hard copies of my book that can be a reality. Recently I had a reading with a good friend, Tana Newberry, at Angel Heart 4 You, in Bencia, CA who talks with Angels. And we are conversing with the Angels about the music project I am currently working on to raise funds and awareness for the Bat World Sanctuary. Things seem to be on track. The angels say everything is in place. My feedback is to keep meditating and ask for guidance If I start feeling fearful or overwhelmed. Then my friend, Tana (Newberry) asked me if I had thought about writing a book. I had been toying over that idea because we have so many great experiences living with our 4-legged kids, I have been wanting to share more stories about our family. We really have a unique family tree. Two humans, 3 cats, 1 rabbit, 7 house plants and various crystals and stones and we all co-habitate under one roof. Do I communicate with every-one in the house-Yes! We may be in different body types, but we seem to communicate to the degree we are able. Now I am not a botanist, but when It comes to my plants, I can feel their energy when they want water or healing energy. And when I am connected to them, I can feel a energy that I interpret as pure joy. I have a special Elestial crystal I named Angelica. She feels like a youngster and when I hold her I can sense a giggling kind of energy. She loves being with the plants on the mantel. Sometimes I will hold her and rock her. I can feel a presence in her. I read that Elestials are very good in healing childhood trauma. We also have a nice size Rose Quartz and crystal Quartz that I use in my healing circles. I use a lot of selenite for keeping the energy in the house balanced and peaceful. I meditate everyday and 2 to 3 times a week I do a major Angel Therapy meditation that clears and balances the house, our family and friends. Why do I want to write a book about our family? Because I want other people to know that families that have human and non-human kids have struggles, challenges, loss when a family member dies, but there are also so much joy, love, compassion, happy surprises that we encounter on a daily basis. I have been taking more photos of the 4-legged kids and shooting more video that will go in the book. I want other people to see how much joy a rabbit can feel when they are doing their daily thing of interacting with their family. Or a cat that developed his own hand signals to communicate with me. I also want to share the experiences when we had to say goodbye to some of our kids when they crossed “The Rainbow Bridge”. It was sad, but so many blessings came out of this too. One thing I can share now is that they communicated with our family after they left their bodies to let us know they are ok. So I am excited on this new project. I am still working on a title. But I am leaning towards “Our Family Tree”.
This is Reggie. He eats veggies. He loves them. He also loves bananas and apples. Recently he had a healing challenge and I wanted to tell my story about the power of love, trust and healing (which I think is all part of the same thing). Reggie is a happy 5 year old mini lop who loves to leap into the air at a moments notice; he also loves to tear apart card board, phonebooks and rattan baskets; I call him destructo-bunny. This is a way for channel his aggressive energy. He also loves to do things to make me laugh. I can be sitting in front of the computer working, he will nudge me and when I go to pet him, he will run away so fast it looks like someone lit his tail on fire (of course we would never do that, but I think you get the idea). He loves to tease me. When he wants attention he will let me know. Sometimes I will get on the floor with him and he will come up and sniff me and put his front paws on my leg. Yes, we have a great relationship. Two weeks ago, I noticed he was not as active as he normally is. When I or my husband David came in to give him his favorite greens, he wouldn’t get excited and run up to his bowl. We got him into the vet to find out what was going on. The vet said he could have picked up an infection. Because bunnies have very delicate digestion problems, it could have been anything. We do feed him a good diet. his favorite greens, parsley, cilantro, dandelion greens, a small carrot in the evening; a small piece of banana as a treat; and plenty of hay and water. Dr. Riddle, from the Southampton Veterinary hospital in Benicia, CA, gave him a shot of antiobiotics, a shot for any pain he may be feeling and sent us home with more antibiotics. When I saw the vet tech give us the drops and instructions, I think David and both had a feeling of dread-we had to somehow get the drops in him twice a day. Bunnies, being prey animals have a hard time if someone holds them down to them medicine, even if this will help him. I had the fear we wouldn’t be able to do this. The other thought that came up-usually when I have had to give antibiotics to my other bunnies, it never seemed to help and they would go to the dandelion field in the sky. We took Reggie home and observed him. I had to keep telling myself “he is going to be ok, just get through the week”. The first evening, David tried to give Reggie his drops by himself. He normally is the one who takes care of that part when our 4-legged kids get ill. Reggie seemed sedate until David put the dropper close to his mouth, then he darted out of his arms with more activity than I have seen since he got ill. It was so traumatic for all of us. I thought “we are never going to get these drops in him twice a day for 6 more days-it’s never going to happen”. Both David and I knew we couldn’t give up. The next morning I did a healing meditation and asked my guides what we can do. I saw our little Buster, our other mini-lop who died from cancer, a week before Reggie got sick. He came to me and said “Don’t worry, mom, Reggie is going to be ok, it is isn’t his time to leave yet”. I was in the circle holding Reggie, all my guides and allies around us. Through visualization, I was shown to have David hold Reggie when we give him his medication and I was the one to administer the dosage “just do it really fast, keep calm and you will do just fine”. I also communicated to Reggie what we were doing, and what he was to expect. Then I thanked my guides for coming together, closing the circle and getting back in my body. I told David what we needed to do. He went to hold Reggie, I got his medicine out of the refrigerator, filled up the dropper, found the side of his mouth and shot it in quickly. He didn’t flinch, in fact he started licking around his mouth where I squirted the medicine. It was banana flavored. It must had tasted ok.
Then he took a short nap. A miracle? Yes, but that what life is, a small series of miracles that show up unexpectedly. So we got past the first hurdle. The next hurdle? Getting Reggie to eat. He was still barely nibbling his greens. He was still eating some hay, but not with the same enthusiasm and voraciousness, he normally has. I kept praying. I would ask Buster. “Are you sure he is going to be ok, or are you just trying to make me feel better?” Buster thought that was an odd remark. He is honest, there is no reason not to be honest. He just kept saying. “Just wait”. I also thought from a rabbit’s perspective being a prey animal, if they are not feeling vital, he may think it is time to leave his body. So two days later, on a Saturday, I sat down with Reggie and said out loud. “I know you being a prey animal, you may not realize you can get well, but your body is strong, you are a warrior bunny, tell your body to start healing itself. Even we humans get sick and it may not feel good, but we let our bodies get well and we are fine. You can too. It isn’t time for you to leave yet”. I stopped talking and continued to sit quietly. Next thing I know. I see Reggie leaving his pen and running out and exploring, which he hadn’t done since he got sick. He became animated again. I took out some parsley and presented it to him-and he ate it! I took a little more out gave it to him and he gobbled it out. Once he took the first bite that Saturday his appetite came back quickly. What a relief. We got him to take the rest of his drops and only protested a little the last day.
I am so grateful for the close connection I have with my guides. They helped when I was feeling lost and discouraged. I listened I surrendered my doubt and replaced it with Faith-a deep knowing even if I can’t see the physical evidence. Reggie was back. We got through it, we faced out fears and I believe this experience brought us all closer together.
I got this photo from a Facebook Post. It was from the website that is dedicated to the protection of all bats-Campbell Newman’s Bat Shame. This cute bat’s name is Pants or Pantaloon. Isn’t she sweet? She loves to cuddle up against something soft and cuddly. I see so much innocence and trust. The more I read about bats, I get a feel that they are very trusting beings. And why not? There is more awareness on treating other beings with respect. This is my focus as an animal activist and Joy Guide. Remember what I choose to focus on is what I attract into my life. As my vision grows and expands, other see it too. Things are changing all the time, even if appearances may show something else. Take this photo as a symbol that there is beauty, love, compassion and understanding every where in the world. What a lesson for us all.
When you walk through the door of a new consciousness, a new awareness it is magic. However, this is a natural phenomena. We just may not know it. I meditate everyday a 40 minute session and them 5 minute meditation tune ups through out the day. I am open to all possibilities. This is a blessing because I never know where I will receive a new message on starting a new project, a new way of looking at a situation in a different way. Maybe the message will come from a phone conversation when I am talking to my brother (which is what happened the other day). Maybe Oski (my 11 year old Bombay mix) will send me a thought that helps me to understand what a certain behavior means; Maybe I will get a vision on a new art project or a new video/song project. Maybe it will be a new calling. Mediation helps me to clear out mental chatter so I will be ready to accept a new opportunity for doing my spiritual work as a Joy Guide. Be patient I am going with something here.
Recently, while I was on my Facebook page, a friend who is a fellow artist and renaissance woman, Angelique Stacy, sent me a photo of a bat holding a teddy bear. So cute. I look in the eyes and I see a consciousness. Very intriguing. I didn’t know a lot about bats, but in the Medicine Cards by Jaime Sands, Bat is the medicine of death/rebirth. I “liked” the photo, then I started receiving more photos of bats. I started seeing how sweet they can be, what a playful nature they have. Then I started finding out more and found out that they destroy the bugs that can destroy crops. other short factoids: Bats are not blind, they do not suck your blood, and their wings are actually their hands! Amazing, right?
In fact, bats are so misunderstood. I realized I was receiving a calling to help raise awareness about the way we may feel about them. I happened to join the Bat World Sanctuary and got a really sweet note from the founder, Amanda Lollar. I was so touched she went out of my way to send me a personal thank you that I shared with her an idea of recording a single and distributing on ITunes, Amazon, CD Baby and 75% of sales going back to the organization. Amanda emailed me back and agreed that it was a wonderful idea. So now I am starting on this recording project.
Besides getting the licensing rights to cover the song “Ordinary Miracle” I am also going to create a video to go with it. All these things fell in to place within a short amount of time. This is how it works, if you ask God to “use me”. Events occur very fast. So stay tuned. This is a wonderful work in progress and will be interesting to see how it evolves.
I love the word Joy. I hear the word, I visualize the word. I breathe the word into my chakras. I can alchemically change the thoughts of fear to Joy when I breathe and meditate on that word. To feel Joy is who I am. I am a spirit living inside a human body embodying and expressing Joy. When I have manifested things into my life in a short time it is because I am feeling joy about my chosen thing and I wrap the feeling of Joy around a symbol of the thing I want to attract into my life. I do this in 5 minute increments during the day and include that in my virtual group meditation. When there have things that didn’t manifest as quickly as I wanted (I of course are in to instant gratification) it is because I allowed a lower frequency vibration to enter my mind. If I felt fear around what I wanted to attract, it would slow down the process. Marianne Williamson says when we go to a space that is less than joyful-anger, fear, frustration-we are deactivating the connection from the Universal flow of energy. She is not saying it is gone forever, these less than Joyful thoughts are slowing down the process. So work on the reason why the thoughts you don’t want to embrace are here. Then surrender these thoughts and say ” I feel ____, but I am willing to change”. Once you surrender to this process, you will see the miracles we are all capable of creating. I call myself a Visionary Alchemist/Joy Guide because it is a process of changing one belief into another belief. And it is so much fun.
What ever you think in your mind you create in your physical world. I have been following that philosophy since 1997. I have taken years of Mediation classes, Science of Mind Classes. I have read the works of Emmerson, Ernest Holmes, Sonia Choquette, Louise L Hay and Esther Hicks who channels Abraham and I totally resonate these words. It is always easiest to say “yes” to this stream of consciousness, but it is in the evidence of living a human life that I put this into practice. I had an experience yesterday when I was with my friend at a Grocery Food Outlet store to buy some smelly Salmon Cat food for our Cat Oski who is having the sniffles. His sense of smell is a little off, so this is motivating him to eat while he is getting through this cold.
While we were waiting in line, watching the very long lines of other consumers waiting to pay, my friend was starting to get antsy because she had an appointment. I am looking around and noticing the line is not moving. I am seeing the shopper’s grocery baskets over flowing with the many frozen dinners, canned goods and other sundries and because I know my friend needs to drop me off home so she can get to her appointment on time I am starting to feel stress. Then I hear that the registers went down. You can imagine how the frustration is growing through everyone including me now. Then the thought came “how do I want to feel?” I closed my eyes and took a deep breath (the line wasn’t moving I knew it was safe to do). I started visualizing how peace would feel in this store right now. I immediately started feeling calm and I could feel this energy flowing through the entire store. Within minutes I hear “It’s working”. Even though I was in front of two other people with their baskets over flowing, I hear a young man say “I can help next in line” and that was me. It was an amazing feeling. We got out of the store sooner than was expected.
I once heard that when you say Affirmative Prayer it doesn’t do anything to the person you are treating for, you are using the Affirmative Prayer to change your view of the situation. when your view changes, your world changes also. This was an Alchemical moment. Changing frustration and anger to calm and peace.
This has been quite a year for my family. Many lessons and many happy surprises. My husband David had a health scare a few months ago, now he is doing much better. Both of us are eating better and he has dropped 40 lbs. I am feeling more freedom emotionally, spiritually, creatively, physically and financially. I am learning a new instrument that I also feel is going to help me in my healing work. Since I have been incorporating my virtual meditation-healing circle I am seeing results with my family and friends. There is a richness in my life that continues to grow.
One of my prayers has been for my brothers and sister and myself to become re-connected. We grew up in a household where we became fragmented. For many years, very little communication took place. Recently, our father passed away and this was the catalyst to re-connect. My older sister and myself went to our family home to visit with our younger brother who was the care taker for our father. We went out to dinner and started getting reacquainted. For some of you out there who have always have close family relationships, this may seem foreign to you. To think that you could go almost 20 years without any communication. We all had to do some inner work so we could come together in an open and humble space. To end any ego thoughts of the blame game and alchemically change to a level of gentleness and compassion. That is a miracle.
Our youngest brother had moved to another state and because of things going in his life, I had no idea how to get in touch with him. My Brother Gabe, who has been clean and sober for 9 years and had stayed in touch with our youngest brother gave me his number and said to call him. So I did call and left messages for about a year off and on. I believe he was still sorting out some things in his life that were painful, he needed to reconcile with.
I continued to send healing blessings to our family. I knew that healing is always taking place and may not be seen in a way I perceive it, yet I know it is still working. Two weeks ago, I called my youngest brother, Christopher. He wasn’t home, but I left a message. The next day he called, but I was in the shower. He left a message on my voicemail and hearing his voice after so many years was a gift in itself.
We finally did talk. Chris has gone through a lot and he has done a lot of inner work and he taken responsibility of his life. It is so courageous to look at the stuff that happened in his life and make positive changes. he is going to school. He wants to be a teacher. He is a very talented writer and he is also studying the Piano.
My Sister also was having challenges with family stuff and I hadn’t spoken to her for almost two years. Then 2 months ago, I needed help putting my bike together and asked our brother in law if he could come over. He hadn’t mentioned if my sister was coming with him. I didn’t question him, in case it was a sensitive subject. When I heard his car drive up, we heard a knock on the door and it was my sister standing there! What a wonderful surprise.
We had a nice time catching up. Now we are talking on a regular basis. Elaine is planning a tamale making party on Christmas Eve and making some tasty snacks to knosh on while we are making tamales. So Gabe, Elaine, her husband Greg, David and our canine nephew, Tucker will be spending the holidays together. Chris unfortunately will not be able to come down, but in the spring my husband and I are planning to take a trip where he lives. This is a miracle. I found out later talking to both my brothers, that we had all been praying to reconnect and it is happening. It is all in the timing. And God is always on time.